Job 22,
2 "Can a man be of benefit to God?
Can even a wise man benefit him?
21 "Submit to God and be at peace with him;
in this way prosperity will come to you.
22 Accept instruction from his mouth
and lay up his words in your heart.
27 You will pray to him, and he will hear you,
and you will fulfill your vows.
28 What you decide on will be done,
and light will shine on your ways.
Do u think ppl have different feelings on things? I dunno, i'm just really really sad rite now with the whole rumours n all.. so many things to put into consideration, and yet no one is actually worth these thoughts. I was asking God, did I do something bad thats why bad stuff happens? and then He just told me to find peace n read the bible.. I wish for so many things now, for people to mind their own business, for truth, for understanding, for hope and for prosperity and for trust. And somehow, non of it seems to be happening and I'm so tired of explaining myself. I dread phone calls now.. I hate the call of trouble. I hate how my heart is so restless now. How everything seems to turn its back on me. and that I'm alone at the path of fault. my heart is fill with disbeliefs, vengeance, hatred and hope.
I dont believe people will do such thing, I wanna ppl who do such thing to suffer, I hate ppl like them, and I hope things will go my way. Am I gonna spend my New Year feeling sorry for myself? I was actually planning to just let Allison take care of my stall tmr, and go spend some time with my mom, shopping, buy new dress. and now, everything becos of some ppl, seems to fall apart and ruined. I am really scared.. really really scared tht real working life is gonna be like this, then I dread every second of it. becos the business world is so cruel, they do anything to bring u down for their own gain, and u lose ppl u love and care about becos of the wicked. Do I still believe in God?
Of cos, will all my heart, I believe that no one else can give me peace except for God. Any unsolved problem can be solved by Him i know. Is this like some kinda test? to test my righteousness and my trust? I'm just so tired, I wish i can just rest. I just can't stop wondering, why people do the things they do? Why the rich get richer and the poor get poorer? how do they live with all those wicked things they do? don't they ever think of the lives they will ruin? does rich ppl always get wat they wan? but they are already rich, why would they want to ruin other ppl's life? i just dont wanna care anymore.. the more i talk or explain, the more it drain my mood n energy..
God, I pray that things will go my way Lord, that You hear my vows Lord and lights will shine my way. In Jesus name I pray, AMEN!
